Technological Jealousy

I'm sitting here on my MacBook. I love my MacBook, but now Derick has a pretty hardcore amazing MacBook Pro and I'm uber jealous. His also came with it's very own sidekick iPod touch.

I want new toys.

Happy September

As we head into September, a job in retail is really the WORST place for me to be. Fall clothing fills me with joy as we begin to pull out cozy jeans, sweaters and boots. There's nothing in the world I enjoy more than clothes shopping for Fall. I look back on these fashionable layered pieces with such sentiment. They are the clothing I associate with Rebel Football games, haunted houses, the beginning of a new school year (all of which I miss so very much), and Halloween.

The smells, tastes, colors, and overall feelings of Autumn renew and refresh me at a time when the earth around me is beginning to go to sleep. Autumn is supposed to be just as much a time of death as Spring is of rebirth, but for me it's a new opportunity. I always think of the optimism that a new year brought me when starting back to school.

Derick started school this week. We got him a new backpack to commemorate and tomorrow we buy him his brand new laptop. He has a great deal of homework and various other annoying expectations ahead of him, but also he is forging a new path for himself into uncharted territory. I am very proud of him for so bravely taking on this journey. He's going to be an amazing teacher. The students who will come into contact with him are extremely lucky, I know I'm lucky to have him.

Now, all I want is a hot apple cider and some high school football. I want to be wearing a warm jewel tone sweater, my jeans and boots with a light jacket. While I would never say that High School was full of only fantastic memories, it did create in me a serious love of Fall and all it brings. Friday nights September-November are about Rebel Football to me and that may never change.

Time to Blog!

A beautiful day to blog! I have a day off today and I think that's just amazing.

Derick and I were awakened by the fire alarm at 1:55 am. Of course we were unable to reach anyone at our leasing office so we had no way of turning it off so we called the Fire Department. They were kind, but were unable to really help us. Our fire system is faulty so they said that the only way to fix it was turning it off and unplugging the battery. Finally, around 3:15, I reached the emergency contact for our building who told us to unplug the battery. But that left us without the security of knowing that our smoke detectors and fire alarm were doing their job. As a result, sleep was hard to come by. As a result, I hate Urban and Bye even more today than I did yesterday. Getting out of our lease would be just fabulous.

Cleaning and organizing makes my world a better place. I love vacuuming. I love dusting. I love organizing my life. A productive day today. :)

Baby Brain

I'm not going to lie about it... I absolutely have babies on the brain. I played with the cutest little boy today at the store while his mom was shopping. He screamed and cried until I came over and tugged on his little feet. He just turned one. He was adorable.

Jon and Amanda Trau just welcomed beautiful Benjamin Camden into their family! I can't wait to get home next week (7 days) to meet him. We bought him the CUTEST present today. (Which I cannot share with you even though I know that no one reads this... i just like surprises that much).

Jimmy and Beth are due in September and I am thrilled to become an Aunt. I just love them both so much and they're going to make amazing parents. I can't wait to babysit and pour endless amounts of love onto this baby.

Derick and I find it difficult to see cute kids without melting. Maybe it's just par for the course. (Or maybe it's just me...)

We'll see.

Thoughts from a Tuesday Morning

I am thinking that I should begin blogging about the crazy things that happen to me while working in retail. But my fear is that these people I talk about will come across my blog and their feelings will be hurt. They don't realize they're crazy and if I call them out on it ... Well, it just isn't my place. Nonetheless, retail is a scary place.

I am sad that my beloved "Spelling Bee" has come to a close. I am glad to have left with some new and amazing friendships. I am so grateful for the carpool, for the cast, for the crew, for the family that I have watched grow over the past month and a half. I will miss Olive Ostrovsky. She was a role that I grew to appreciate more and more each night, and I feel like she will forever change my outlook on life. It's amazing how someone you don't even know can create a character, put her down on a page, then you give her a piece of yourself and it blooms into a friend. I like to call roles that I've played "friendships." Some people consider characters that they've played themselves. I think that when a show ends, you never should lose yourself and that's what happens when you claim to be the character you portray. I think they're friendships... They come along and you put some of yourself in, then you gain some new life in you. You move on and miss them, but there's always pictures, notes, books and many fun things to hold on to and remember them by. Good-bye Olive Ostrovsky. You were a really good friend. I hope we meet again someday.

Looking Forward, But Loving the Now

As an actor, we are constantly looking into the future. Auditioning for shows that could start next week or a year from now. We work on one show while desperately try to book our next and avoid closing our show without a good idea as to what's next. If we don't have something else lined up, we are ashamed to say that there's nothing on the horizon. For a year, I had the perfect excuse "I'm planning my wedding." Now, I don't have any idea as to what is next. I have auditions lined up and I'm taking classes. I still have trouble not feeling the pressure. I have a new retail day job that I enjoy and that's great. I am getting new headshots next week and that's great. I am still looking forward.

I am currently in a production of "Spelling Bee" that makes me so happy! Doing entertaining and fun productions where providing the audience with a good time is extremely fulfilling. Also, working on a piece that says something, moves an audience, and has a point of view is also very fulfilling. "Spelling Bee" is a rare show that does both. I love how much it has stretched me as an artist and entertainer and I'm thrilled to work with such fun and talented people. I love going to work every day.

Blog Fail

I just wrote a whole blog. It wouldn't publish and deleted. Epic morning fail. (Not as bad as the other day when I started my day by setting the cord of my Kitchen-Aid Stand Mixer on fire).