Looking Forward, But Loving the Now

As an actor, we are constantly looking into the future. Auditioning for shows that could start next week or a year from now. We work on one show while desperately try to book our next and avoid closing our show without a good idea as to what's next. If we don't have something else lined up, we are ashamed to say that there's nothing on the horizon. For a year, I had the perfect excuse "I'm planning my wedding." Now, I don't have any idea as to what is next. I have auditions lined up and I'm taking classes. I still have trouble not feeling the pressure. I have a new retail day job that I enjoy and that's great. I am getting new headshots next week and that's great. I am still looking forward.

I am currently in a production of "Spelling Bee" that makes me so happy! Doing entertaining and fun productions where providing the audience with a good time is extremely fulfilling. Also, working on a piece that says something, moves an audience, and has a point of view is also very fulfilling. "Spelling Bee" is a rare show that does both. I love how much it has stretched me as an artist and entertainer and I'm thrilled to work with such fun and talented people. I love going to work every day.

Blog Fail

I just wrote a whole blog. It wouldn't publish and deleted. Epic morning fail. (Not as bad as the other day when I started my day by setting the cord of my Kitchen-Aid Stand Mixer on fire).

So much to blog about! So little time...

I'm exhausted and it's so late. I promise I'll blog soon. I haven't forgotten about you completely, blog. I just have a lot on my plate, a small appetite and a desire to eat every bite. As a result, I'm taking my time to digest each piece and avoid getting sick. BUT I'm filled with the delight of everything I have in my life. A little teaser of what's to come...

My husband is awesome. He's smart and talented and going to make an unbelievable teacher some day. I am so proud of him.

My show is a wonderful experience and I can't wait to reflect on how much I really love it and put it all into words.

I am so proud of all of my amazing friends as we go on our journeys and make great things happen.

I like my new day job very much. It's not my dream, but it's a vehicle. It's also one I like to drive.

Soon, blog. I will write soon.

Negativity As A Weight

I have become more aware of the effects of negativity in the world around me in the past few months. I watch as those around me gain a chip on their shoulder, and I feel myself wade through the highs and lows of rejection, mediocrity, and accomplishment. Yoga was even full of its own highs and lows today. My instructor, a gorgeous British woman who doesn't sugar coat the way a lot of the Yoga Instructors I've come across do. It took me a little while to accept her critiques as help and not judgement. I let go finally and was able to actually get somewhere in class after I allowed her to help me. That felt good.

My show opens in a week. We start tech on Saturday... Here we go!